Balance*

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I don’t know how people do it.

Juggle work, errands, housework, church, eating properly, exercise, spending time with your husband, your family–all while trying to squeeze in a little time for yourself so that you don’t go absolutely mad in the process.

I feel like I have no time for everything–if my dishes get done, the living room gets neglected. If I spend time on my course, exercise is impossible. If I take the time to make a healthy meal, I forgo something else.

I just can’t do everything.

And I realize that that’s okay, but I’m not all that okay with it.

I hate that I didn’t even have time to make my bed before I ran out the door for work this morning.

I hate that the first block of time I had to do dishes yesterday was 11pm.

I hate that everything is rush rush rush.

Mostly, I hate that lately I never feel like I have time that is just… mine. Because I have so much on my plate right now, I feel guilty watching a TV show when I should be doing something else. I feel guilty reading a book before bed when I could be folding laundry.

I even feel guilty writing in here when I should be finishing my assignment.

*sigh*

I’m sorry, I’m just so tired and I needed to vent. I’m even waking up at night stressing about all the things I need to do. And stressing because the Hubster is stressing and working hard. And stressing about the fact that I’m stressing.

Vicious, vicious cycle.

And now, break time is over… back to work I go.

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5 Comments

  • julie--burnett

    this sounds like my life in grade twelve and eleven. wake up, go to seminary, get ready for school, go to school, get home, do homework, go to work, go to rehearsals, do more homework, go to sleep sometimes after 3, and repeat.
    it’s awful, but let me tell you! it does end! :) look for the light at the end of the tunnel :) good luck!

  • Chelsey Martin

    i feel your pain! sorry things are so stressful for you right now. remember to breath, and sometimes you have to make yourself take some time to do whatever it is you want to do because after that all the other stuff seems a bit more bearable.

  • Lacey

    I can completely relate! I feel constantly torn between wanting to spend more time at home with my boyfriend and needing to spend long hours at work as I try to get started in my career and then trying to fit in a couple minutes here and there of “me” time. One of my goals for this year is to try and establish better work/life balance so I’ve been trying to schedule in time to do things that are important to me (bookclub etc.) but it is difficult when things always keep coming up. My hope is that by always keeping my goal top of mind things will get better as the year goes on. I hope that things settle down for you soon, maybe after your move or when your course is done?

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