After waiting through a very long two days, I finally got a call about an hour ago.
The principal called and cut straight to the chase: I didn’t get the job. He didn’t offer any feedback on the phone, but told me I could schedule a debrief to go in and discuss my interview if I wanted.
Am I disappointed? Yes. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t.
Am I devastated? Nope. I learned my lesson last winter and know that this job just wasn’t mine to have.
As soon as I got the news my immediate reaction was to rehash the interview in my mind and wonder, “Why wasn’t I good enough?”. I caught myself in a hurry and decided not to dwell on not getting the job.
I’ve learned that even though I may not always understand it, every experience is leading me towards… something. The rejections hurt, but I know that this is what I’m supposed to do and that I am a good teacher. My experience last winter–feeling so low in my career one minute and then finding myself in an LTO the next–has taught me that I can’t always see what’s around the next corner, but that there is something there.
All I can do is keep moving forward, and remember that things always work out the way they’re supposed to.
After sitting silently all morning, my phone finally rang a little after noon. I didn’t recognize the number, so I assumed it was the school calling.
As it was, it was a school, just not the one I was expecting to hear from. I applied to two more jobs last night, and today a principal called to offer me an interview tomorrow morning. This school is further away, but it’s an all English position, and it has the same timeline as the job I just interviewed for.
So, who knows? Maybe interview #1 was just a warm-up for this one, or maybe a full-time gig isn’t in the cards for me this year. Maybe I’m supposed to take it easy this year and spend more time at home with Ruby.
Either way, I’ve just decided to accept life as it comes. Full-time job, or supply-teaching / being home with Ruby… I really don’t think either of those options are anything to be sad about. :)
So, for now, I plan to (hopefully) knock the socks off this principal tomorrow, then I’m packing my bags and going north. I’ve been feeling a little disconnected from my northern roots, so I think a trip to the Great White North is just what I need.
Thank you again for all your good thoughts and well-wishes this week… you guys sure know how to make a girl feel loved. :)