My thoughts*


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I slept in this morning.

I awoke to see the sun streaming through our window.

I realized that I didn’t have to fly out of bed and get ready for work.

I found an email from my professor, surprising us with a week off from my course.

…and then I came here, and saw the many messages left by all of you.

Thank you. I wish I had words that could adequately describe how much I appreciated everything you each wrote, but I don’t know that I have the right words to express my gratitude. In the words of the most lovely Tulip, it made me want to hug my computer and each of you.

When I decided to begin writing again at the end of December, I wanted to change the way that I had been writing in here. I wanted to be honest. I wanted to be record the good and the bad, and that’s what last night’s post was. It was me reflecting on how I felt in that moment.

I know in my heart that there is a job out there for me somewhere, someday. I know I shouldn’t take that interview experience personally, but I am so bad with rejection. Not that anyone should be “good” at it per say, but oh… I am just bad. I feel things deeply, and I need time to process.

With regards to my writing, I’m not sure that I expressed myself properly last night. My goal really isn’t to be the most popular blogger in the world, but I know that with readership numbers comes opportunity. I look at Alana at The Good Girl Gone Blog and I want that. She has all these amazing opportunities to review products and SHOES! And Rachael at The Southified Masshole— she was offered an opportunity to compete in a contest to be a Twitter Jockey last year. I just… I don’t know. I want that. haha

…but I don’t know how to get there.

But, I know I will. Eventually. (I hope.)

In the meantime, thank you. Thank you for being here to help me gain some perspective–it may take time, but I’ll achieve my goals.

Thank you for believing in me.


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One Comment

  • Karen Peterson

    It takes work to get to the point where people start offering you free swag in droves. I get things once in awhile, but hardly on a regular basis. I’m working out a plan to seek new giveaway and review opportunities, but it takes time.

    Just keep smiling. We appreciate your honesty about the good and the bad! There’s just way too much of people sugarcoating things.