Settling In*

Since we moved here I’ve felt that I didn’t quite fit in anywhere… at school, at church, sometimes even at work–until today. I don’t really know what changed or when, but tonight as I was sitting on a bus with someone I’ve recently become friends with, I realized that I’m starting to feel like I fit in here. It’s taken me a year and a half, but I don’t feel so awkward anymore. When we first moved here I had a very hard time. I was far from my family, in a city I didn’t know anything about, at a university in second year when everyone had already made friends. If I hadn’t had the Hubster with me or met Dee last year I might have gone nuts. I was so unhappy with the city that we even seriously considered moving last Christmas.

Moving into our new ward was one of the hardest transitions for me. I left a large, fun, loving ward where I felt loved and where I LOVED being and moved into a geriatric ward where no one really noticed us because we weren’t someone’s grandkid. Two-thirds of my ward here is over 65, and they are mostly people who have grown up here together and never left. They do a lot of things very differently than I’ve ever seen before so all in all it was a bit of a shocker. But even that is growing on me… slowly but surely. Where else would I have learned about the Black Vortex? (I don’t think I’ve told that story… ask me and I will)

I guess I’ve really learned something about myself. I don’t adapt quickly to big change. When I family moved when I was 17 it took me a year to like my new city, and then I fell absolutely in love with it. I hope that we can settle there, or nearby, when we start a family. And now, it’s been a year and a half, but I feel like I’m finally fitting in. I’ve met some wonderful friends, explored the city a bit, and thankfully a couple of young married couples have moved into the ward. I know that I don’t want to stay here permanently, but I’m content with where we are for now. I love our apartment and am growing to love how scenic the city is. And even though it’s a trek to campus, it is one of the most beautiful campuses I’ve ever seen. So, no more complaining. Well, maybe a little bit. haha But not so much.

Shop Girl*