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I haven’t forgotten you.
September 30th is a bit of a hard day for me. It’s the due date for the child I carried for 13 weeks. The child I miscarried at 13 weeks. The child I loved for 13 weeks… and every day since. Today, she would have been two… so, I baked a cake. It just felt right. We really only ever have cake on special occasions, and I know that the kids will be so excited to see it after dinner. They won’t know why we’re having cake, but I will. It’s for you. So, tonight we will have cake. I’ll listen to your siblings laugh around the table and think…
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We had a long night.
I mentioned that he had his four month check up on Friday, and with that came his next round of routine vaccinations. One of the vaccines he received was a second dose to protect against Rotavirus. The doctor warned me that he could experience a mild upset stomach and vomiting for a few days, but he didn’t react at all to his first dose so I wasn’t worried. On Friday night he spiked a low fever. This is pretty a common side effect to vaccinations– especially since he had had three in total that day. He was a little uncomfortable, so I gave him some baby Tylenol to help settle…
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Five Seconds*
Do you remember the show “LOST”? I was so obsessed when it first started. Then it got weird and it “lost” me. (Ha) That being said, there was a scene in the first or second episode that has really stayed with me. Jack, one of the lead characters, explains to another character how he deals with the fear he sometimes faces as a surgeon. In those moments when the fear was big, he would let himself feel it for five seconds, then he’d let it go and move on. There’s a scene shortly after where another character applies this practice and it helps her get through something really difficult. I’ve…
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Four Months*
W had his four month check up with our doctor today! His non-stop growth spurt seems to have leveled off a little and he is now officially ON the charts. He’s currently 17lbs 12oz, which could explain why my back and shoulders have been sore… (Does anyone know a good massage therapist?) He’s healthy and growing well, and he absolutely charmed everyone in the office today. He didn’t even cry when he got his needles… he was a total champ. This visit was SO much better than my last. Maybe I just caught my doctor on an off day last time, but today she was just oozing about how beautiful…
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Ten Second Snug*
This morning, after feeding W and getting him back to sleep, I thought I’d crawl back into bed for “five more minutes”. However, according to the laws of the universe, as soon as one child sleeps another wakes up. Just as I closed my eyes I heard the pitter patter of P’s not-so-little feet creep into my bedroom. His face appeared next to mine a second later. P (whispers): “…mom? Can I have a snug?” Never one to turn town a snuggle, I pulled down my duvet and allowed him to wriggle into my cocoon of warmth and comfort. As he burrowed into my arms, he said he just needed…
