Out of the Loop*
Today, while at stake conference and having bumped into someone I know that was married almost a year to the day AFTER the hubs and I and finding out she was already 5 1/2 months pregnant, I realized that I’m one of the few women I know that were married around the same time I was that has not started a family. The Hubster and I are in no rush as we feel it’s very important to finish our post-secondary educations before having children, and we’re enjoying just spending some time just the two of us. I realize that some of these couples are in a different place than we are (educations, finances, etc), but really… I don’t get the rush.
As I stood talking to some friends of mine after conference, they all started talking about their pregnancies or kids and I felt so out of the loop. I don’t know if it’s my mind completely shut off to baby stuff right now (because I know if I start really thinking about it I’ll want to start having kids) or something else, but I felt so… out of it. I really wish we lived in a place with more young married couples that were still in school and not plowing ahead into family mode. I mean, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that, it just makes it difficult to ‘hang out’ or do things together when there’s a 6 month old baby in the picture.
I don’t know, maybe it’s just me finding yet another reason to dislike our city and ward… but I feel like it makes it THAT much harder to fit in. I mean, my geriatric ward is difficult enough to survive in, let alone now that the last of the 4 young married couples (aside from us) is now 5 1/2 months pregnant, and all the others have had a baby in the last 6 months. They all congregate and chat away, and I feel so awkward. I don’t know. It’s just…. weird.
Anyway, I just needed to rant. It’s not something I’m losing sleep over… just something I got to thinking about this afternoon.