I’m thinking about maybe going back to work.
I’ve been hemming and hawing about this for months… about when the “right time” would be. The more I think about it, I don’t really think there will ever be a perfect time. Eventually I’m just going to have to bite the bullet and do it.
It’s not that I haven’t enjoyed supply teaching–I really have. More than I thought I would, to be honest. I’m still considering just trying to actively pursue that every day, instead of just working a day or two here and there as I have been the past five months.
A couple of weeks ago I had a call to my old school… and it was like I never left. The kids I taught were great, I loved being back in my old department and the office staff was really excited to see me.
…but that wasn’t even the best part. I know the teacher I was covering for, and she left me an actual lesson to teach. I started teaching, saw the lightbulbs go on for a few kids and it just made me so happy. I loved it.
In that minute, I really realized how much I missed it. All of it. Being home has been wonderful, but I love my job too.
So, I’m kind of sort of looking. I’m not committed yet, but I feel like maybe I could manage it. I’m not so anxious to go back that I’ll apply to every job (like I used to do), but if a job came up at a school I love then I might apply and see what happens. Part of me is terrified to do it, but the other part is really excited. I think it might be insane, but at least with an LTO it’s only 5 months. If it’s a total disaster trying to balance home and work life than I can always go back to supply teaching next fall.
It’s hard, you know? I do love being home… but I’m also SO CLOSE to finally, finally paying off my student loan and I think it could be so lovely to have that in my rearview window.
In any case, I’ll keep you posted. Right now it’s all just ideas and dreams… the postings are all coming out in the next week or so and we’ll see what happens!