It’s no secret that I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed lately.
Rather than gradually easing out of my unemployed nothing-ness, I jumped head first into craziness and I think that it might be too much. I have so much going on that it’s becoming difficult for me to focus on the things I should be doing so I just do nothing instead. I make sense like that. :)
So, I’ve decided that I need to let something go for my own personal sanity. I’ve got several “big” things on the go–work, school, and volunteering–and today I evaluated whether or not I could let any of those go. I decided that work was probably kind of important due to the whole rent / groceries / car payments bit. You know. So then I considered school and volunteering, but since those are (hopefully) going to put me into a position to begin my career, I figured those were probably kinda sorta important too.
Next I considered all the other “fillers” in my life–you know, the other things you’ve got going on that seem to take up time without you even realizing it. I came up with this list:
1) Church (I teach a Sunday School class which involves some prep work, and should be attending activities on Wednesday evenings)
2) Housework (cleaning, laundry, cooking, dishes, groceries, etc)
4) Spending time with my Hubster
5) Letting my Mom know I’m still alive
6) Downtime (aka TV)
I’ve really become that there are only 24 hours in a day, and I’ve decided I like to sleep 7 or 8 of them… and when you figure in all that big stuff in there, it doesn’t leave a whole lot of space for all this other stuff. So again I pondered: what can I cut out?
Well, believe it or not, I like the church bit, so that stays. It’s a bit of extra work on my part, but it’s important to me and I feel it’s worth it. Next!
Uhm… housework. Sooo… I may or may not have unwittingly experimented with this one already and the result was disastrous. I actually went to get a glass out of the cupboard to find they were all gone... and not because someone came and stole them. *sigh* When my house is not clean I get stressed out and it’s not a relaxing place for me. I like neat. I like order. I like clean. I don’t like having to hide in my office and pretend that my messy living room and kitchen will magically clean themselves. So, cleaning / housework stays. (Unless you want to come clean it for me? Hmmmmmm?! I’ll love you forever!)
Next is blogging… oh blogging, how I love thee! I know my writing has suffered a little since all this newness started, and my reading definitely has. I so miss my mornings where I could enjoy a leisurely breakfast and read all my blogs and write the thoughtful comments you deserve… now I have to read them in big chunks which is entirely less lovely for me. Hopefully when I find something to cut out this will improve. I miss it! (P.s. Blogging STAYS. It’s my outlet, I don’t just heart it, I need it!)
And then there is my wonderful Hubster… some days I feel like we’re just ships passing in the night and don’t get to see him nearly as much as I like, but we try and squeeze some time together in where we can. We always try and have dinner together at the very least. He definitely stays. I kinda like him. (like, a lot.) :)
I love my Mom. And she worries. So I call every 2 or 3 days to let her know I’m still breathing. I kinda like her too, so she can stay.
That just leaves my downtime, which, let’s be honest, means my TV shows. After a careful review of my weekly schedule, I may or may not be watching entirely too much TV. There are so many shows I want to watch that I don’t even want to tell you about them all. Ha. I simply don’t have time for them all, so, I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to break up with some of my old favourites. (It’s not you, it’s me.) So, I now bear the arduous task of saying farewell to the following:
We had a few laughs, but I think it’s time we both move on… I really only watched you last season in the hope that Brandon (*swoon*) would return in the new series, but sadly, this was not to be. Truthfully, I’m bored. I could care less whether or not Naomi gets into college or whether or not Silver goes bonkers again. I really only liked Ethan + Annie and you took that away from me. It’s over.
I used to love you. LOVE. Like watch 4 episodes a day, love. Then, all of a sudden, the episodes seemed repetitive and my beloved Grissom left the show. While I heart that Morpheus has joined the cast, I think I’ve seen enough of the repeats that you call new episodes. Law and Order: SVU is so much more interesting with, truthfully, a much better cast. Adieu!
Oh, I struggled with this one… I have been a long-time lover of Grey’s. I’ve been watching from the beginning and was a die-hard fan. The ferryboat episode? I cried for DAYS! Meredith & McDreamy? I have been rooting for you since DAY ONE. But oh… the post-it wedding? What a let down. Slowly but surely my favourite characters are disappearing… Denny, Burke, Addison, George, and now Izzy… I’m done. You’re just not the magic you used to be. Private Practice is just so much better, it’s even luring Bailey away!
As much as I love you Walter, Fringe keeps letting me down… the Hubster has long been disinterested in this show that we discovered together and I’ve found that lately it’s hard to muster up the enthusiasm to watch. Truth be told, I really only watched for a little Pacey time (Oh Dawson’s Creek…) but Walter was a pleasant surprise. Sadly, constantly calling Astrid “Astro” or “Astrid” is not enough for me to continue watching, even though it still makes me laugh every. single. time.
So, there you have it. I’m hoping that regaining 4 hours of my week I’ll have a little more time for more important things, like seeing my Hubster, and you of course. :)